Redeeming the Time...

So it has been awhile since I have written on here... Months in fact.I always feel a little awkward talking about stuff God is doing in my life and hanging it out there for the general public to critique. And it gets to the point where I feel like I should have something profound to say and yet I am not sure I have much new to add to my story at the time, so I decided to take a break.

In that time, I have been on an interesting journey that has led me to some deep conclusions about my life, my ministry, and my every interaction with people. These ideas are much more impacting to me than to anyone else I am sure, but they are without a doubt course altering in my own heart. That being said, this post is not about those insights.

I love what I do. I love that I get to meet with people about life's most difficult moments. It is both challenging and very rewarding to walk with people through these times in their lives. And, every Sunday morning we have people who come to church wondering where hope can be found. They are in a "last ditch effort" to find something that can give them a reason to go on. Every week I get to rub shoulders with these people.

Here is the rub, every time I visit with one these precious souls, the words in that conversation are of profound importance. So, as I move through these seasons of growth and radically shifting my own personal life metric, I wonder... who have I messed up along the way? I love growing. I love God stretching me. I love stumbling onto new, deeper, truer understanding of God and who He is.

But I have a fear. Above all, I want to represent Jesus well. So I ask myself some questions - who have I messed up along the way? What false version of Jesus have i represented as truth? How much more will I have to learn before I can say that I know how to tie you to the power that heals? When will I be healed myself?

My hope: only God can protect people from my inadequate descriptions of who He is. Only God can help anyone fine Him in the midst of my cloudy explanation of Him and His power to heal and help. And as I grow, only God can redeem the time that I lost not having a right perspective of Him...

My prayer: Lord, forgive my inadequate understanding. Thanks for revealing, restoring, and redeeming. And please help me to represent You to the very best of my ability - Amen.